This weekend was really hard for me. I was triggered in every sense of the word. I had my baby cousins 1st and 4th birthday party to go to, and I spent a lot of time with the baby. There were kids everywhere and pregnant moms and I was so overwhelmed.
When they sang Happy Birthday I lost it. That is something my baby will never hear. That hurt me a lot.
My insomnia has been so bad lately. It caught up with me last night. I fell asleep at 5pm and woke up at 6:30am. I guess I really needed that.
When I say I'm stressed and overwhelmed...I mean it's driving me to the point where I break down from it almost daily. I'm past my breaking point.
I started burning. I don't know if it's better, worse, or the same as cutting, but I've done it a few times. I can't stop hurting myself. I haven't eaten in four days. Im in some serious trouble. I don't know how to be better. Help?
I am so sorry. I wish I could help you. I wish I could take you in. Do you have any family that you can stay with for a while. or friends. I think about you all the time. I am sorry honey. If I can help you. . . . let me know.
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