I hope everybody had a good Thanksgiving. My cousins came over and I got to see their 2 kids, Alex who is 3 and Zoe who 7 months. I love them. Seeing them made me sad because I was watching how their family functioned and there is just so much love. That made me upset because I don't have that.
After they left, I hung out with my exboyfriend. And oh boy...did I screw up. I have to keep reminding myself that there is a reason we broke up. There's a reason I'm now with Myk. I feel so lonely all the time and so I always go back to Brian. I hate myself for it.
And now I might be in big trouble. I'm scared.
My depression is getting way worse. I can't even get out of bed anymore. I don't know what to do anymore.
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